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I have grown up my entire life learning, then believing, then knowing without a doubt that to be fat was shameful and embarrassing and unattractive and the worst thing that someone can be. How am I then supposed to stop believing in my soul that I am not worthy of love because who could possibly love someone who looks like me.
I will not even try to find love because I am only worthy of the desperate and dateless men. I can have no standards or aspirations because I am less than. I am not worth the time of anyone better because of how I look. And if someone did tell me they found me attractive then it would only possibly be true if they have a fat fetish or something and ONLY like me for my size rather than who I am.
If it wasn't for my fat I would be a great catch. So why am I holding onto it? It is making me so desperately unhappy in so many ways so why am I so scared/reluctant/unable/... to do anything about it? Is it so much a part of my identity that I can't let it go? How do I move past this?
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ReplyI once had a friend whose weight yo yo'd up and down. When she lost weight people told her how good she looked, and she didn't like the attention, so she put the weight back on again until she decided to lose it again and the same thing happened again and again. Maybe you too don't want the attention you know you will get if you lose the weight but to be thin you must rise above the attention. At a job I had there was a girl who wore leggings all through the winter and when summer arrived she turned up in a dress and our coworkers commented on her being in a dress, so she went back to wearing leggings all through the summer. I wore long pants and leggings through the winter and when I wore a dress I had people saying, "Oh you are wearing a dress." I replied to each of them, "Yea I know. Is that a problem for you?" I told her this, but she still kept wearing leggings so if you cannot rise over the compliments and comments you will always be fat.
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