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Stop worrying? I don't know how. Pregnancy nightmares
1 year ago · 4 · Need Advice, +2 · Explicit
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I was sexually abused by men as a young girl. It has left scars. Twenty years later I'm still nervous around men, the only man I intimately have ever trusted and will ever trust is my husband. When strangers check me out or try to flirt with me directly, I clam up and it's adrenaline fight or flight. Outwardly I conceal this, but inside I am legitimately afraid.
At night I usually have reoccurring nightmares about being a helpless kid again, and being attacked, over and over by the same predators from my past. But last night my nightmare was different. It's never been different before.
It stemmed from yesterday, i dolled up and looked very ladylike for a date at the park with my husband. I'm pregnant, but not showing much yet. I went to the bakery alone to get food while he waited in the car. While I waited in line, a table of young men were checking me out. I'll be blunt they were looking at me like I was a piece of meat. Men do that all the time I get it, it's natural, not all men mean any harm, I know that. And I know physically i'm an attractive young woman so it's going to keep happening until I lose my looks. Anyway, I quickly got my food and left, feeling unreasonably scared.
Well last night I had the worst nightmare. I was attacked by a group of men, they dragged me down to the ground and raped me. And the whole time i was terrified they were going to kill my baby.
My husband says not to worry it's just because I'm pregnant and it's normal for my anxiety is worse. I don't think he's wrong.
Even the other day in the shops, a polite young man said excuse me to get past and I jumped a foot in the air, scaring him and myself. The poor man was innocent and just trying to walk past and I freaked out.
I don't know how to stop worrying, I know it's bad for the baby.
I'm just really afraid of losing my baby.
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Maybe your fear of losing your baby is causing you to be like this, or your past and these dreams are causing you to fear losing your baby. Whichever, because your past is interfering with your present you definitely should see a therapist so that you can have the help you need to put all of this behind you and to realize that your baby is safe and there is nothing to worry about.
Replyyes, I'm so sorry this happened to you and continues to interfere with your life. Please seek therapy there are a lot of different options out there if money is the issue, but I think it is essential to talk with someone who understands what your going through or at least has dealt with many patients in your situation. I went through a similar thing as a kid, and I worry when men stand close to me or look at me exc.. I am praying for you and truly hope you get through this.
ReplyYour thoughts. No one told me how to work on my thoughts. By the time I came to know about it, it was too late.
WHEN A THOUGHT COMES YOU HAVE TO IGNORE IT. A DAY WILL COME WHEN THAT THOUGHT WILL NOT BOTHER U AT ALL. You have to work on it.
If you don't mind.
Only if u want to
Watch Fr. Mark Goring You tube channel. He has this 3- 5 mins video. He also has another channel
Food for Life TV Ministry
Replyyou are a strong women,
have faced the darkest shit that no one could ever come back alive from that phase.
ur very brave.
u have a good husband who supports u and loves u.
i know, im a man too, we do checkout girls.
i have a girl friend. and i love her so much that im literally alive and living for her. and i want her to marry me soon next year.
i am overprotective bf. men are the reason im overprotective towards her. men can not be trusted, never, not a single tiny bit . they always want that one single chance to fuck a girl . yes its true.
not all men but i think 95% of men think about fucking a girl if they get a chance. otherwise some rape.
this is the reason i want my gf to be safe and call me when something happens. ill be by her side and protect her.
now , coming to you.
you have to start thinking about the positive things in ur life. stop even looking at men , they are bastards, make female friends, spend more time with ur husband . .
men are going to look at u .
men will never stop checking u out.
men are just bloody dogs, im a man myself, i hate men .
be safe, ur going to have a beautiful baby, stay at home, stay safe, focus on they healthy being of ur baby, eat good, look good, love ur hubby and take care.
Stay safe.
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