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Too Many Ideas
1 year ago · · overthinking, · Explicit
So I have no idea what to write about, other than I have too many ideas, too many thoughts in my head. First off: I feel like I'm trying too hard to impress other people as well as myself. I have this unwritten, unspoken goal or rule, kind of, for myself, that if I don't make enough people smile, if I can't make people happy, then I've failed. If I can't make someone smile then I'm a failure, a waste of air and energy. It's getting harder and harder to do that, though, it's hard to make people smile because of who I am: a furry, a therian, a witch, non-binary and bisexual. My identity is getting in the way, but I can't let it go. Being a therian as well as a witch, non-binary and bi, those aren't a choice. I can't choose where my soul goes, I can't choose my heritage or my body.
Now being a furry, that's something I can change, but I'm not going to, haha. I'm gonna do whatever I want. However, I keep feeling as if I need to have something else to identify as, like I need more labels. Like: being a plural, being genderfluid, having more and more theriotypes...
Why do I feel like I need so many labels?
On another note, my ideas for books and posts and drawings and videos are overflowing in my brain, filling my mind and spilling out of my mouth. i can't stop the flow of brain-made ideas. I can't use any of them, or I'll be crazy and one of those catladies who likes to make creepy children's murder stories.
WHAT DO I DO?