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Oakley. a sweetheart. A new life in Nebraska with my best friend. I thought it was going to be great. It was the opposite. When it all fell apart, I packed up my stuff and sat on the steps with him. I sobbed into his fur. He was going to me by my roommate's father. upon a big mess she decided she wanted to take him. I regret that decision. I should have taken him. held on to him... The entire drive home I cried. He was my best friend. I haven't seen him in two years, and I still regret it.
I ran over my dog. She was an elder dog. The kind that waddles when she walks. she was so full of energy. lively, I was unaware of her laying behind my tire, when I went to leave, a man approached me and let me know there was a dog. my heart sank. I opened my door and there she laid... I was heartbroken. I picked her up and sobbed until her fur fell out. her body lay limp and cold in my arms. This was the worst feeling I had ever had in my life. Moving on from her death was hard. I drove far away. Turned my phone of and cried in a desolate area for 6 hours straight.
Shortly after my loss, I was in my very first car accident. When I turned 18, I begged to spend my first check on my ford fiesta. Her name was celeste. I bought her with 30k miles. and in the 8 months I had her. driving to Nebraska, late night drives, racing, her life ended at a mere 68k. I felt like her and I would grow up together. That she would be my first paid off car. Funny enough, I had some... suspicious things in the back seat made for an exciting night. Anyways. Before I left my friends asked me to go to KFC. when I pulled out of the drive through everything was fine, and then it wasn't. I crossed an intersection thinking I had enough time as the car was just barely entering. Unfortunately, he was speeding at T-boned me. She was totaled and I missed work. Move on to a couple days later where I find out he had, no insurance, no driver's license, nothing. I was dealing with the pain of the car accident home doing nothing... I had a fish, I looked to him for comfort. he was a very active beta. His name was Robert. Me and an old roommate spent hours at the pet shop comparing faces to Robert Di Nero. When I finally returned to work, I came home, and he had gotten so far behind the filter it shredded his fins... I watched over him until it was 4 am, hoping he would make it in time for me to save him with some meds that I couldn't get until after work the next day. I went to sleep and awoke to my Robert dead on his favorite leaf. So much loss made me feel so fucking targeted by the earth. I wanted to get out of my depression. Do something that would make me feel better. So, I toughened up and got the money for a brand-new baby. Here she was a Hyundai Veloster. Cherry red. Katana gear shift. Godzilla and donkey Kong stickers on the middle bumper. I drove her to work and showed her off. That shortly ended when I busted my ovarian cyst, again I was home in pain. I missed a good month of work which left me desperate to find money for rent. I had healed after resting and had work on Monday. Sunday morning, I decided I was going to heal myself. Go for a drive. It was full of your ear blasting music .... And again 22 days after my purchase a man ran a stop sign. He T-boned and rolled me until a pole stopped the car from moving any farther. I lost my job. My car. My freedom, and nerves in my fingers. from here on shit just went down. skip forward I found an amazing job. full of dogs and love and a manager who cared about his employees. Iwas let go from the company due to a license issue. Here im stuck jumping job from job. with shit hours and pay. My car got broken into and they drilled out my steering column in hopes of stealing it. I have no money for rent. No money to fix my car. I'm struggling to feel happy. everything good. everything happy has been stolen from me. What's getting better?? NOTHING. If this earth wants nothing good for me. wants nothing to keep me Happy WHY THE FUCK AM I STILLL HERE?
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Sounds like bad karma is into you. Have a big think about how you treat people. Or this is a run of bad luck.
I had a friend who spoke to me nastily in a newsagents and a week or so later she got cancer and when that was cured she got sciatica and then on top of that she got a bug in her stomach and was in hospital for months and had part of her stomach cut out so now she is lop sided. Then she began coming to my place (I didn't invite her) and she was nasty again a few times. Her hair fell out and grew back, then she had a cyst on the back of her neck, then she got a terrible rash on her body, then her kitchen ceiling fell in, her toilet cracked, she had gastric for days, and then water leaked through the tiles in her shower and she had to go to her son's place for showers. Now I have had enough of her nasty comments and barely have anything to do with her.
ReplyAre you nasty to one certain person?
ReplyI'm so sorry ❤️ you've had a year to forget. This isn't karma but I will say that the accidents are odd. Maybe consider improving your defensive driving skills if you think this could help. Otherwise ignore me. But either way Merry Christmas.
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