Why

Why is it this way? Am I just that far gone? Am I wasting my feelings, my heart, on someone who can’t reciprocate? Why can I see others, and it makes me long for someone I don’t have. I look at the feed, and every person I see, it is her in my eyes. Why do I torture myself listening to “her”? The music takes me farther down the road I shouldn’t go. Why is it my soul yearns for someone I can’t be with? Is this wrong? Are these feelings imagination? Are these feelings a trick of my mind? A mirage of loves past? Or are these longings my real and true love for her? Is the giddiness I feel when she messages me a real happiness, or just part of my delusions? If I could do it all over again, would I wait for her? Could I wait for her? All I know is this, I only feel complete when she is near. I only feel peace when I am with her. And I only feel sorrow when she is elsewhere. And since we are never together, I feel sorrow most of the time.