My Timed Entry

I’m feeling really exhausted today. I’m tired not physically but mentally. The only person I could be vulnerable with and felt like I could share with left me saying I’m too much and he can’t take it anymore. Now I don’t have anyone but myself. I’m trying my best to make myself happy but I’m so miserable even he said that. But I know it’s not his responsibility to fix me I just wanted someone to listen just to listen someone I feel comfortable with but I think they were tired and I feel bad that I made them feel this way. Well I’m trying my best to survive everyday but sometimes i just can’t take it I don’t know what to do when that happens. I just cry it out but I still don’t feel satisfied. I know people might say “get a therapist” it’s not easy. Therapy is expensive and I’m a student and my parents don’t believe in therapy and I don’t think they’ll send me for therapy more than one day cause of the expenses. I am working but that’s not enough. I’m trying my best to survive but sometimes I feel like giving up. :/