I'll be 35 yrs this year. I still feel like a loser.

No car, No place to live on my own, and no GF. The last three years I had nothing but unexpected life changes or thrown off course in life. First, got termination from my job in the summer of 2019. This job came with good pay with benefits. I was planning to move out from my relative's place. To find a rented apartment or buy a place to stay near work or school. Then, buy a car. However, I have to postpone my graduation date and find another job while going to school. I did find a few jobs but it was minimal-wage type jobs. I had to take it because the bills need to be paid. However, instead of healing my emotional pain from the termination and learning from my mistakes. A few internal mental breaks down and walk out of a few jobs. Second, Covid-19 lockdown(2020), mental breakdown, lost interest in school, 2021-early job dismissal(volunteer termination), and lost hope. The covid-19 lockdown bring PTSD from my trauma from childhood that led me to lose hope in life and school. I quit early and graduated early. Took me at least one year to recover. Then, I found a suitable job. Less than 6 months in the job. The job asks to leave the due person's false accusation because I try to help to better themselves. Because it was part of my job. This causes me to have suicidal thoughts and bad intentions to bring chaos because of this unexpected experience. That is another year to recover. Last, I found a decent job with good pay and benefits. Even though, it is enough to get by. But, I don't about this current situation. I don't know if I am able to find a place of my own and get a car. In addition, I would like a GF in the future. But, the modern dating world is high standards, high competition, and no chance for the average person to find love. In addition, looking for somewhere is harder for me. Because I don't want to go back to within my own ethnicity due to being cheated on, almost ended myself because I don't follow traditional culture or embrace the negative stereotypes, and been told for being worthless. Now. I am trying my best not to complain. Enjoyed the present. To be honest, I did okay in life before Covid and 2016.