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Part 1 because I know I won't be able to fully express myself as it's my first time.
I always knew that having a pet can bring so much love and happiness, but no one prepare you to fully understand the pain that comes with a pet that you showed so much love. there are days where it seems like nothing has change and some days it feels like this numbness, this sadness that takes over you in a way that just does not make sense. I do not see any point for anything anymore. i find it hard to have motivating to do normal thing. All i am doing at the moment is having this deep sense of wanting to isolate myself from everything around me especially my thoughts. I basically hate everyone around me because i am not getting the type of love i want to make me feel full again. I am full of this guilt, this loss, this pain that i do not know how to deal. I abandon one dog when i lost the other one. i am not willing to take responsibility of anything. the thought of myself as a horrible person is always hovering around me. the people that surround me, all i can see are their flaw, their habit i have come to despise. I am full of hatred at the moment. and i know things will change but that same thought makes me feel horrible about it.
i treated bubbles differently when i got nimbus and i knew that and i felt it too. And maybe she left soon too Now when i look back, oh boy i sure do want to slap myself.
i had a sinking feeling when the clocks strike midnight on new year day and knew something is not quite right and i still have that feeling which makes this whole thing so much worse.
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