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Dear mom,
I know you say you just want the best for me. but your words hurt more than you will ever know. As i get ready to leave the nest i need you to have some belief in me, I've gotten this far haven't i? Why do you think that I'm not gonna finish high school? That after all my hard work that i'm just gonna flunk out and fail my classes. I may not be doing the best now but that doesn't mean im just gonna fail. I applied to colleges and got into many! What you thought i had no chance of getting into, I got into. I did what u wanted and it's still not enough. I got good grades. For the first time in awhile I feel intrested and have a spark for what I might learn next year that was smothererd by your words. To say "we first need to get you through highschool then we can worry about college" hurt me. To say "if you even go to college" after I got and and am actually excited, hurt me. Blaming my dad because of my failure hurts me. Threatening things I have been looking forward to like visiting my top college, hurts me. I am burnt out because of all these decisions that have not been mine but include my life. Honestly sometimes I feel like i shouldn't be where I am. That i don't deserve it. That because of you I am where I am. I know people say that that's not true but at times I can't help but think that because of all the tourment and yelling and hurtful words that that's the only reason I am able to be successful, that because you went against my wishes, behind my back, and lied about it to my face I am where i am. Through you working behind the scenes. Contradicting I know. To say "You hurt me so much and yet without you i don't think i deserve what i have". I sometimes wish I could resent you more than I do. I sometimes hate that i still love you.
Your daughter,
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I faced the same issue although in my case it was a bit severe and it is my fault to a great extent. I did good till college and now I am pursuing post graduation in Artificial intelligence. But during the programme I fell in love with a guy and had sex with him. I was afraid of my mom's reaction yet i mustered up the courage and told her the truth. I used to hear hurtful words from her during college as i couldn't achieve 9+ cgpa. But when she came to know the truth, she said that i broke her trust and this time her words hurt me like a dagger piercing in my heart. Her words have left me numb inside. I am finding solace in work. I don't even feel like sleeping. I stay sleepless for nights.
ReplyAnd i also think you might be a single child. If there is a single girl child, she is protected well by parents but at the same time parents have high expectations on their daughter to do well and keep the honor of her family.
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