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Fisrt of all , before starting narrating my story I want to give you some information about my background in order to fully-understand the context.
Me : I am a teenage girl around 17 , not sociable but have friends . I am a straight-A student that seems quite distant before the fist interaction , since I am actually a different person inside the classroom . I can't open up easily also and hate being unwanted in a friend group , so this is why I avoid socialising with some people ( I cannot understand if I am welcome or not.). However I think that I keep a balance as far as my social life is concerned , since I have my friends and a lot of people that I can talk to , inside and outside school.
Around the age of 12 I was taking drama lessons . In my class there was a boy which I found kind of cute , but after an observation and a conversation with some other girls , I concluded that he is actually ugly. However , two years ago that boy showed up at my school and for some reason I overcame that prejudice I believed, and found him extremelly beautiful , while he had not changed significally. It was a matter of time to start having a crush on him.
The problem was ( and still is) that I had not experience at such things , apart from an akward story I am trying to forget , so I could not talk to him. I did not know how and in addition I was too shy to even try. I was waiting for him to realise and appreciate my existance which was a terrible plan and I was aware of it.
The next year he moved to my class , so the interaction problem was a ridiculous obstacle. We talked sometimes but I was akward. He even once made a joke and I did not hear it (my listening skills are not the best) so I laughed instead of teasing him back or communicating with him. He had even texted me ( for school related matters though) multiple times and I had too ( even though I am supposed to be the best student, I pretended to forgetting things ect) , but I destroyed this communication . Why ? This is why : I thought that making him understand that I do not answer everyone's messages as far as school-related questions are concerned would make him feel unique. But this thought was dumb. The result ? I came in the classroom discussing this thing with my best friend ( saying how bored I am of answering these questions) and I bet he understood that I was refering to him as a 'burden' . So , he never texted me again 'till today.
This year , I decided to do sth about this situation , so I tried approaching him via his friends , since one of my best friends was doing the same thing for similar reasons. Me and this friend ( but mostly this friend) started hanging out with that group 'aiming' at a different member of course. The outcome is still terrible for me. The reason ? Another boy from that squad started texting me. This happened recently. I was just being friendly and he though that I may be interested in him. I am not , I do not even like him as a person. If he thinks that he has chances, it means that my crush is giving him advice and he his friends are talking about me not for the one I want but for the other. I decided to become distant and ignore his texts to take the hint. Yesterday , I answered him as dry as possible after leaving him on read for 4 hours and instead of stopping sending he asked a question about me that we had already discussed in person. The worst part is that he was sending to both of me and my best friend messages , but after being ignored by the second one he insisted on texting me. I am sure that he is not friendly through personal experience and what I have learnt is that I should cut it out as soon as possible. I don't care about being polite , because when I was polite I ended up having a weird outcome. The next week I am going to see the guy I am interested in for a school-project , but can't do something if he thinks that his friend has a crush on me. He can't like me , it's the unwritten code.
I can't get out of this situation. It's like being in cage that I have created. My feelings are capturing me instead of letting me be free. It is not that I like him for 3 years straight , but when I believe that I have overcome him the feelings return. It may have to do with the fact that I see him everyday and necessarily I spend time with him. You can't just stop liking someone when he is constantly in front of you. I want to put an end to all of these which means that I have to move on or finally make a move.
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BRUH I JUST POSTED SOMETHING ALMOT EXACTLY LIKE THIS!!!!! girl you're right you needa either make a move or move on. For me personally, it's the end of the school year and I don't have the guy I likes number, so weirdly enough I've gotta make a move to move on, cuz if I don't I'll be stressing wether or not he likes me for the whole summer, but if I make a move I'll know for sure and then I can have closure. I'd suggest the same for you maybe? Make it clear to this other guy that you don't like him tho...
Replyi know you said you were shy, but you should work up the courage to tell them how you feel. if you dont do it now, you probably never will. if he likes you back, great, you can form a relationship, if not, you should accept the feelings and move on. communication is key in any relationship, so you will have to learn this skill. maybe you can write out how you feel rather than saying it, it may help you communicate better.
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