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In college, I had a group circle around of 7-9 people in which we were two girls and rest were boys. So she and I were a great friends but their were hidden lies also. I was in a relationship also who was not liked by anyone much but I loved him anyway and skip to future I'm not with him anymore and I don't love him because it was all manipulated. But this is not the main case, our relationship was kind of on off. So after our first break up which was initiated by him, a boy flirted with me (his obvious nature) and I got involved in some intimacy because I was not enough mature to handle some situations. And I filled with vicious guilt and told this incident to one of my best friend who is my girl best friend's bf. But for four years I was in a guilt that I did wrong to my bf and he was also like blame me for the consequences but I didn't know that I was his karma. After four years we were on a final break up and I was dealing with depression. And when I was on my recovery stage then my girl best friend told me that she and my boyfriend kissed before I kissed that boy and she regrets about that so she burned her hand with the oil. And after this act and also during my recovery stage I didn't respond or reacted much because I was in thought of her self harm and thought she cares for me too much. So I calmed her. She also fighted with me when I was going through my worst time. And she told me that truth because her bf fought with her and don't trust her. It was her bf idea to not tell me about that incident at that time because he thought we were gonna break up anyhow so I got to know about the truth after 4 years. And her bf justify it like it was 4 years ago incident and we were not that great friends at that time so I was manipulated with this thought. Even though he still doesn't trust her and he also cheats her now and then but after all of this I trust him more than anyone else. But main topic is about my girl best friend. I do care about her but there were so many incidents that took my peace away. She is obsessed with her bf and whenever they fought I only thought of her that I should be there for her and I go talk to her bf and tell him to sort out things because she loves him and sad. But because of her obsession sometimes she fought with me that why I talked him about their fight but I was a fool thinking about her situation. During my 2021 bday, all of us met at one place and celebrated my bday. I was so drunk that I forgot to do something that she told me. After midnight her bf call me and yell at me about my irresponsible behaviour. I was shattered and hurt and said sorry to them also but they ruined my bday. After 4 days I got full time job and I was happy at that time and wanted to share with them but they didn't pickup my call. And at my first day of office I was trying to talk to her but she called me self centred and I cries all the time which hurts me still. I also sent a gift to her so that she can know that I care for her. But she took the distance so did I. I was in peace and busy with office. And everytime she blames for creating these distance. Skip to next bday she came to job city and it was second time. And after kissing my bf I didn't want her to meet my any new friends and colleagues but because of some situations she came to my office party. Where she offended my good friend with her abusive language (her regular language) and again I was upset at my bday and after confronting her she didn't even say a sorry. She said that I'm not going to say sorry.
So right now I'm like I do miss her sometimes but she also took my peace. But sometimes we outgrow people in our life just to get better. Even my sister, mom and other people in friend circle doesn't like her that much. I needed a good friend and a true love.
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Your right to try and keep work and her separate, you will find love in time and it sounds like you’ve got good friends/colleagues. Hope that your next birthday goes better :)
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