Is it time?

It'll be 2 months ever since we broke up. He has moved on already and I'm still stuck in the cycle of moving on and missing him. Sometimes I don't care about it, and then later on I'll miss him and want him back. I haven't seen him in a while since its summer and our classes ended already. I'm actually scared to go back to school and see him again after months, I really wish I can move on before we go back to school since that's where we made all of our memories and seeing him and pretending we're strangers gonna suck af. I still haven't let go of him, I already accepted the fact that we're over but I still kinda wish he'll comeback to me. I'm stuck between waiting for him or forgetting him, if you love something you must let it go or if you love something you gotta fight for it. I really don't know what to think, what to feel, or what to do. But rereading our convos and seeing our photos really makes me want him again. There are already guys who tried talking to me after we broke up but I just realized even more that it's still him. I can't see him with another girl and I really want him to comeback but he no longer cares about me anymore. I want to let go since it seems so hopeless already but he's all I wanted from the very start. I made the move because I really wanted to get to know him more but he expressed his feelings first and then he left me. I kinda see why he blames me for it but actually how he treated me before we broke up hurts so bad and makes me hate him. I'm still crying about it sometimes. But I barely think of him now. I made progress with my life, but whatever road I take all leads back to him. I be doing something for myself then finding myself looking at our photos again. I miss his touch so much, his voice, his jokes our late night convos, his presence, I really miss everything about it. Sometimes I think it was for the best but I really don't wanna be without him:( It's so hard I know I can find someone else but I just don't want to. How could I? He was my first in everything. I really want him back but sometimes I don't. I don't really know. I just know there's no chance for us to try it again unless he's the one who initiated. That's why I never texted him again even tho I badly want to. I know he'll probably ignore it or give me the cold shoulder. And he's also not the type to initiate so idk. I might really lose him if I don't do anything and pretend I don't care but I also don't know what to do to get him back without the long essay since I've done it and it really didn't work before we break up. I don't really know what to do. It's so hard to let him go cause he got me like nobody else did. He loved me for who I am, I can be myself when I'm with him. But the fact that he left me and he said he still love me back then but don't wanna fix it anymore makes me see him in a different light. Idk. Should I just let him be since if you love something you must learn when to let it go, if it comes back, its yours forever. But if doesn't, it was never meant to be. Is it time to let go of our past, but something we had was worth fighting for:/ bruh this drive me nuts.