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I’ve been struck move again with an intense loneliness, it’s been there for years but in the last 12 months it’s gotten so much worse.
I had believed for a long time that I would die alone, it just seemed like the most likely outcome. And I was mostly fine with that, slightly wistful maybe.
Then I fell in love with someone and for the first time in my life I thought maybe I could have that kind of happiness to love someone and to be loved.
She didn’t feel the same way, I don’t hold it against her, i could never even resent her for it. And suddenly I’m back to knowing I’ll die alone but now it hurts so so much.
I hate myself, i don’t think anyone could ever love me, not in that way. I long for physical contact, to hold hands, to be close with someone. I feel isolated from everyone around me, even my family, and I don’t want to tell them any of this because their answer would be religion.
Even when I was at the peak of this, more emotion than I’d ever felt. Only one person noticed, one friend and not even a close friend. I’m incapable of properly expressing emotions, my closest friends and family find me damn near impossible to read, the girl I loved had no idea I liked her until I told her.
I thought I’d gotten past this, or at least past the worst of it. But months later it’s hurting me again and just as much.
Sorry for writing so much.
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Never say sorry for writing here. We are here to listen and you’re heard and also, people deserve to be loved, even evil ones, as love may be a medicine for them.
You’re feeler deeper than others, striving is a part of life but for you more.
But your person, we’re all flawed. Believe in yourself
Just tell your family that you love them, your friends too. And her, believe she is flawed and in pain too.
When you love you’re powerful
Dying alone isn’t painful, living without loving is painful and death.
You’re capable of many things
Just believe in yourself and the God
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