Decided to go back and given them a chance but at the end it was major mistake.

Disclaimer: just venting, being honest, and under the influence of alcohol.

Tonite, after being open and given a second chance to be within my own community or comfort zone. Tonite, It was a mistake and personal misjudgment. Now in the present time. I can see why I don't hang out or associate with my own community. Because I am nothing more than an emotional punching bag and a stereotype number to them. Yet, I try so hard not to see the negative side of my own community. I can see why, I disengaged and avoid it at all cause. Is either hate or accepted. Is not accepting negative stereotypes. I can see why, I go far away locations or don't hang out with my own community. They never accept me in the first place. Everyone knows each other and has special hierarchy orders. When come within my own community, I can see why, I stopped drinking alcohol and stopped following the negative stereotypes. I knew it by the time they reject me or social peer pressure. These toxic influences were nothing more than roadblocks in life, to begin with. Tonite, hopefully this could be my last to drink alcohol or hang out with my own community. I went sober for almost a year before I relapsed tonite. Hopefully, this will be the last mistake, or learn from my mistake tonite. I would apologize to bar patrons tonite for foolish behavior.