darkest hour

I could see its shadow and it is coming towards me, getting closer and closer. I close my eyes, took a deep breath and bit the bottom of my lip, wishing it just turn the other direction, far away from me. "hey, its me again". I heard it loud and clear, it is now in front of me. Though I had my eyes closed, I know its is looking at me with a big smirk on its face as if it is the day it had been longing. I sighed and opened my eyes, I have to face it despite whether I want to or not.

It is painful but what is more painful is the way it turned me against myself. The way it made me believe that I deserve the pain and now it sits down laughing with satisfaction while watching me take over its job, torturing me.

Then comes the guilt. The guilt causes pain too. I scream for help, but there was only me there. I sat on the floor in the middle of that dark room and it gets colder and darker with every second that goes by. I smiled, knowing that the darkest hour comes before dawn. The light will shine as the new day comes. A new hope and a stronger girl. Just hold on for just a little while.