Adhd nightmare

I've been trapped in this hole

for as long as I remember

it's so lonely here

no one understands me

I'm just annoying clingy

needy inconsistent

too much to handle

I'm used to the ebb

and flow now of friends

coming and going

one year best friends

and the next strangers

These drugs aren't working

I wish I could take more

till I get dizzy but I know

the higher up I get the

more disappointing reality

is, that the void in my soul

will never go away and this

dagger in my heart won't

stop bleeding and these

parasites in my brain won't

ever leave and will eat away

at my happiness forever

please, let me feel whole

for once in my life,

let me have true love that

I never experienced,

peace and contentment that

I never understood

just once

please