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How long does it take for a father to trust his daughter? I'm 22 years old I gave up my lif so far not getting to enjoy the normal things and fun stuff other kids get to do with their friends in school and college hanging with with each other just because my dad was strict. Even then I was not angry on him I told myself he did it to protect me and I spent my life so far trying not to disappoint him. But today when I look back I don't have anything. I lost my adolescent life neither I gained his trust. It's so heart breaking. If I knew he would not change in the beginning I would've atleast lied to him and njoyed my days I would've had some memories. I can't deny that he does everything for me. He spends for me motivates me he works hard I understand all that but this other side of him is so toxic. Maybe he does all this to control me? He made me so dependent it's so difficult for me to face the outside world. When I look at myself I can only see all my flaws. I can keep on pointing out my flaws. I have trust issues, an introvert, no social skills, anxiety, scared to talk, don't ask for help, insecure, dumb I can keep on adding on. He's so dominating and never even tries to listen to what I want to say. It's all good unless I listen to him and do things. I can't even mention my friends he has such a dirty mind he'll compare them with me in a wrong way. Is he so scared that I'll ruin his name. That I'll run away with some guy or I'll become a stray a spoiled kid. After 22 years is this what I get? I literally lost everything in this. I lost myself. And I don't know how long this is gonna go on. I love him that I can't accept his toxic side I try to find reasons for his doing. I don't know. I don't know how long this is going to go and what I should do. I'm just tired to trying and pretending.....
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