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I've not been doing well recently and I wanted to let everything out which brought me here. I'm actually 18 year old and my parents don't get along well, since I was a kid. I have an elder sister but she left home for studies so I had to deal with it alone. I was never really close to my dad but when I was around 14 or so it started hitting me more. They used to have frequent fights and mostly it was because of financial reasons. One evening when I was 16 they got into a huge fight. My mother became restless and wanted to take her life. Though nothing happened that event traumatised me to the core. When they used to fight again I would get these flashbacks, my body would get warm and it would tremble. Often I tried to intervene but somehow it made it worse for me..these memories got embedded in my brain in such a way that no matter how hard I try I can't get them out. They influence the way I think, the way I feel. Even if I'm with my friends there's this fear that has a hold of me and I can't help but wonder if things are fine or not. My dad has trust issues..he doesn't trust my mom and he's stubborn.. I'm not saying that he's totally bad. I understand him. I was not close to him neither my sister so somehow he feels like an outcast in his own family. I tried several times to bond with him but it's just that there isn't a proper base to establish that bond. He doesn't share if he's hurt and when he can't confide that anger he lashes out. I also feel responsible for his behaviour and I promise I'm trying to make things right. But it just isn't easy. I love them both and I want them to be together.. but at the same time I'm tired of this. With time it only seems to get worse..and I don't really know how far I can take it. I'm praying that God saves them
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