Life is hard

I cried 4 times today. I felt like I'm so stupid and I keep saying in my head "you're stupid, you're hopeless, everyone's gonna be mad at you for being so stupid!"

Early in the morning, I finally gain courage to step out of my room to go to 'uni customer centre' to solved my problem. Things got bad because I've been postpone the problem for too long. The employee called my advisor and HOD whether I can study for this semester or not. They told me to wait in my dorm while they discussing the matter. After 2 hours, they called me saying that I can't study for this semester because it's already too late (other students had finished their quiz and mid-term while I'm about to register for the subject).

The person that called me ask "Do you have any problem? Would you mind telling me?" and she told me if I have any problem I can tell her anytime (she thinks I'm having a hard time because I postponed the matter for too long). She also ask me if I want a counselor to help ease my mind...

After that call, I felt kinda relieved to know that someone reach out their hand to help me. I always thought I was alone. I cried because I've been wanting someone to ask me "Are you okay?" That's all I want to hear.