My Unsent Letter

Hi bro,

This feels strange, writing to you once a year not being able to speak to you. Never knowing what your voice would sound like.

Yesterday you would have turned 30, how we know time is not our friend. How we know were getting old. 22 years ago we lost you, and life has never been the same since.

Tomorrow I turn 1 year older, 1 year closer to death. 2 years ago, I was planning on joining you, mum and dad. We could be a family again.

I can't miss you, because I never knew you, not properly anyway. I don't even remember you. All I remember is what mum used to tell me and at least that makes me smile. I still look at the brighter star in the sky and think of you. All of you.

I'm dreading tomorrow, I don't know what to think or feel. Holidays are always hard for me, that's when I miss you the most.

I never know what to tell you about my life, its so bland and boring. But its nice to think somehow, somewhere you are reading this knowing how much I love you💔❤️