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So I’m a trans masc and bi. My family don’t support me at all. I used to think that at least my sisters did. They said they did. But when I came out they told my parents that I was faking it. I always plan when I grew up that I would run away. There’s this one thing that terrifies me. I don’t want to be alone. My family is all I know. But I know I can’t stay. Since I came out to my oldest sister when I was ten she told me to hide until I was 18. At first I thought I could but now five years have passed and it feels like I’m dying. I want to claw away at my skin until I’m nothing but a void. I cried every night because I’m not the person that I’m presenting myself as. I tried so hard to hide it. I really did. I realised that my oldest sister will be 28 when she graduates grad school. She’s still relying on my parents for money because she works for them still. I thought to myself what if this happens to me. I can’t wait another decade after I graduate. I simply can’t. I rather die first and I have considered it. Hiding has been so hard on me. I never felt so lonely but surrounded at the same time. I have to be me. I can’t go through anymore nights like this. I hate crying because I know I’m becoming more of a woman than a man. This is why I have to leave as soon as I can but I’m scared. What am I without my family? Without the people I love the most even if I’m not seen in the same way. I’m nothing with out them but I know I will continue to be nothing if I stay. I can’t choose between my happiness and my family. I just can’t leave them, even if it hurts me.
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