To my ex-fiancé

I apologize for disrupting your life, but I truly need to get this out of my heart and hope you can understand that just this once. I was a Puer when I met you, a Puella. During your pregnancy, the Puella in you was dying, but my Puer seemed to get stronger; I was not aware I was a Puer until now, and always could not grasp what was wrong in my life; I was such an ignorant, foolish, arrogant boy. I feel like I just got out of the prison of Puer. I honestly feel so ashamed – about how I defended myself in all the times I was truly wrong. I honestly am rethinking my entire life, and puzzles are being put together. I’m so sorry you had to deal with me. Stupidly, I thought I was the one having to deal with you. I put you through so much, my ex fiance. I don’t know how I can ever repay you but by simply staying out of your life.. But I wanted you to know that I feel that everything is truly going to be okay for me – I am also in peace that if our son never wants anything to do with me, that I would understand… But I wish he one day would want to meet the normal me that had been long delayed. I’ve got a long road ahead of me to recover from all the damage completely, but at least I got a compass that works now. I will always respect both of your boundaries. Lastly, I apologize if this letter is still a nuisance for you. In that case, you can just tear it up and throw it away.