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How I overcame my depression due to narcissistic partner
7 months ago · 0 · Depression, +2 · Explicit
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I am married and mother of 2 kids. I have been married for 8 years. Me and my husband were having so many issues for about 7 years. The issues were mainly because he will keep on blaming me for anything bad happens and he knows that I am capable to doing things by myself but he can not accept that. He always says he should have never married me and says I am a headache and waste and now I am his responsibility. With all these I was not interested to have sex with him. But unwillingly I used to participate just for his satisfaction. I never shared any of my problems with my parents or siblings. But my husband used to say all ill things about me to his mother. And through his mother my parents came to know that, issues are there in between us. What she told was ‘ we are living like hostel mates’. That is what my husband concluded with his mother. So we finally went to meet a psychologist and she concluded that I am going through depression and he is a narcissist person.
That is the first time I am hearing about narcissistic trait and during those days I shared a little details on what I am going through this marriage , with my parents and siblings. I never imagined they will support me, but my father told me if I feel like I can’t take it anymore , they will support me for divorce. They all be there with me. That time , I found a relief and I completely changed from the thoughts that I am a useless and a burden to my husband. I learned that I don’t have to bother on what all bad things he is talking about me, and I am ready to leave him if I can’t bear it anymore. But, by God’s grace last one year is going peaceful between us rather than 2 or 3 fights. He also got to know that he is narcissist. And he changed his behavior, not completely, but he is trying. I too have faults, which I am trying to resolve.
Now I am not calling his mother . I will attend the call of her and answer what she is asking. I don’t involve with her like previously. Just because even after she got to know the situation and about his narcissistic personality, she told me to adjust as if all the problem is created by me. According to my husband the main issue is my non willingness to sex. Will you enjoy in sex after your partner mentally abuse you? After comparing your value with a dog and trash? After making you feel as a burden to him??after telling I am a person who is slowing down or ending all his good future ??? But as per his mother I have to adjust with all these , no matter what I feel.
After the sessions with our psychologist, when he changed his behavior I do participate in sex and did enjoy it. I should have done it in the beginning of our issues.
But I am prepared to leave him if he makes me feel the worst again.
One thing I realized to overcome the depression or to keep our mental state healthy just don’t keep everything with you. Just tell to the people you think will support you. I haven’t shared all my issues with my parents or siblings. Just gave them an overview and they supported me. With that I overcame my depression, where as doctor was saying I may need medication to overcome depression. Just sharing your worries will help you. But I have to release my secrets to get a released from my past.
Will be writing more about my past.
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