Everything is messed up

I have made it loud and clear to my boyfriend that it passes me off when we don't talk ( because we only talk 1 hour whole day that too over text and meet barely once a month) and he has this habbit of texting me when he is doing other things as well .. so the conversation is really distracted and I hate it ... and when he goes to his hometown or with his cousins even that distracted conversation doesn't happen and it makes me feel like I am worthless, attention seeker and I am the only one who is waiting for him ...

At first I was just avoiding it but thn it got really bad and I told him everything.. he said he understands where I am coming from and that he won't do it again ... 2 days earlier he did it again and from that moment I feel really really annoyed whenever he is texting me... we both know that there is no future for our relationship because of many differences involving our families... but it's like I am still holding onto the false hope that it will magically work out somehow ... I don't want to reply him , but still want him to realize what he did was wrong .. but he acted as if there was nothing wrong and that made me feel even more annoyed..

Honestly there have been multiple times I have thought of breaking up with him .. but I can't gather the courage to do it .. all the thoughts that what if I regret breaking up with him ... what if I become more messed up after breaking up with him ... I will have no one else in my life to rely on and the list goes on and on ... I don't know what to do at this point .. have I lost it already?