Idk anymore

Everyday I wake up feeling lifeless. When I wake up I feel so drained once I remember the type of family I have. My dad works in another state for the upkeep of our family. My mum is stressed and that stress passes unto me as the oldest child. Younger brother who is stubborn and often getting into trouble at school and at home. Younger sister who is rude and pretends a lot. Youngest sister who is bratty and doesn't stop throwing tantrums until she gets what she wants [ she literally threw a book at me because she failed her question in the quiz game we played, she cried, went upstairs slammed the door and bawled her eyes out.]

When I ran away they said I wanted attention. They said I was being selfish.

I'm doing my best. They keep draining me of my peace of mind.

Idk what to do anymore. I feel numb. My insomnia only makes things worse.

Idk how I feel. 'Tired' is the only word that comes close to how I feel.

Hope you hv a great day btw <3