My Timed Entry

I'm overthinking, being depressed, I don't know why, I'm doing good. I've been doing good. I just feel depressed. Maybe overthinking makes it worse. Since I think he likes me I think I like him. But then it feels like he's not interested. I'm not interesting. I don't know why. I just feel like I'm not worth his time. Or anyones time. I know it's getting bad because I overthink. But it switches up so quickly. Like one moment I'm as happy as can be because he's funny and makes me smile. THe next I just feel unworthy of his time and attention if he makes any for me. It's not even like I want to feel like this I just do and it's not his fault but my stupid brain. I just wanna get my homework done without zoning out and in all the time and just stop crying for once and get it over with. Not dying or anything just say what I want to and leave it for chance. Maybe it might be nice and say it. Maybe it'll make things worse? I can't even tell anymore since my tears haven't stopped rolling down my face since I started this and I can't help but just think. Over. And over. My thoughts are blurry and focused and all jumbled up. It's a nightmare.

I jsut did a test and I have "severe" depression. LIke that label helps it. I know I'm depressed, how do I stop it. I just want to feel normal. Better. Not happy. Just. Better. Back to work. Now since I'm not crying but it hurts ya know. My brain just eating me up from the inside out.