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When you learn programming, the first thing you learn is Hello World. I am not learning to write. Here is my Hello, and I hope you are the world. In my own way, I am an accomplished writer... but I am deeply out of practice. I want to write more. I want to write for an audience. The last time I wrote regularly was two decades ago... it's been a long time. The world has changed. I have changed. I need to start simple... I need to write a journal, I think. For multiple reasons. First, I need a place to vomit up the miasma of inchoate nonsense that is swimming in my brain and look at it. Second, I need someone else who is willing to look through that miasma and help me see it from other perspectives. That would be good. Third, and most importantly in this moment, I need to sort the daily miasma into piles.
What kinds of piles? That makes all the difference in the world, doesn't it. You probably don't know if you want to pick through my barf unless you think I swallowed something interesting earlier.
I won't start with my best points. I will start with self deprecation, because I think setting realistic expectations is an honest part of asking for a new relationship. I cannot claim to be one of a kind, or ground breaking, or even an expert on any single topic I could write about here. I am part of a chorus on any topic I could choose to write about, I am sure. Not only am I standing on a high, back rung of the bleachers, I am probably mouthing "refrigerator" silently with all the lyrics-- but that needs to stop, I think.
Where I think I might have value to add as a voice is in the niche. It's less about polyamory in general, or adult autism in general, or parenting in general, or gardening and permaculture in general, or attachment and harm cycles, in general. It's about the intersection of these things, and the light that one shines on the other, each fracturing or absorbing, illuminating, amplifying, or confounding the signal it receives from the others in its own ways...
And in the last I am showing you what I told you to begin with. I am an accomplished writer, although perhaps somewhat out of practice, and if you appreciate good writing-- writing that makes use of literary device, meanders sometimes but always finds it's way home, that aspires to heights of greatness and needs practice (and a book on grammar and punctuation) but on the whole presents decent content... then this last is the most profoundly important reason for you to read my journal.
I want to write with no holds barred and severe honesty about my life and what I think about it. I need to process these signals.
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