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Hi, I'm M i have recently lost my dad to stage 4 liver cancer...and this year has truly been the worst year of my life. Let me explain...First i will give a little back story of me and my life, for starters i'm 16 and i dance for a living, i grew up all over the pace but mostly in oregon. I would like to say that my family is close so i grew up very family oriented but once my family moved in with my grandparents we all kinda grew apart. The relationship between my dad and grandma drove a wedge between everyone else. My dad and i were very close like inseparable, id like to think he was my best friend and all i ever wanted was for him to be happy, now i also have a great relationship with my mom so don't worry. During the summer of 2022 i have having major back pain so we got it checked out and i had an x-ray... turns out i need to get surgery and as you could imagine we thought my dancing days were over. But the same week i found out i needed surgery my parents sat my brother and i down and told us that dad cancer and was going to have to do treatment. That was hands down the worst news of my life, eventually i got surgery and my parents were there for me every step of the way and did everything for me for about 3 months while i was recovering, but then we had to start taking care of my dad and that was even harder then what i imagined. I guess i always had this thought of God saying "he's gonna be okay and he's gonna live." but i guess he was wrong because about 4 months ago he was taken from us. Dealing with losing him is almost unbearable at times, at first living without him seemed impossible, but one of the hardest things was seeing my mom grief over him. They were married for about 23 years and now she has to learn to live without the love of her life. I would never wish this upon my worst enemy, this is the worst pain and most of the time i don't know how to deal with it. If you have lost somebody important to you im am deeply sorry and i am so sorry you have to live through that pain everyday because believe me its no walk in the park. Anyways this is the first thing im writing on here so thank you for taking the time to read this, and remember...you are loved by somebody somewhere and you have always and will always matter.
Sincerely, M
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ReplyI am deeply sorry, M. I am Alia and as I read your story I couldn't help myself but cry. We are also taking care of my grandma right now who was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. Keep going M, u are so strong.
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