Sad true about my LiFe.

The most miserable truth about life is that we do not even live for real. Hole this shit is just another game, simulation, theatrical act of some sadistic being using us as pawns in a game. Life without meaning, no chance to earn or get what is needed to survive. No job, no cash, no future. Hole this shit is just an imagination. The only thing that exists are electrical impulses in our brains and everything else is just an imagination. Damn realistic simulation of reality that enslaves us all. I belive that it is more probable that I live as Brain in a Vat than a person in real life scenario of my life. No faith, no rescue, no achievements. Am I even alive? Maybe I am drugged to belive that all of this is real, to accept this miserable shadow of life. If you are able to connect with me in some very sophisticated way, paranormal style, voice in my mind, unexplainable images before my eyes, lets interact. Let it be the building experience to create some good dialog between us two. Matrix Style Communication is welcome. But for real now. Do you even still believe that this world is real? I was almost freed from this lie, maya reality, nightmare of a life... but again I am being immersed in this lie, deep, so deep that I forget about truth that I've learned. You could think it is stupid, that I lost my sanity, that I watched to many sci-fi movies. I am normal human being who learned a little about life. I am not some youngster who do not know a thing about all I am typing here. The only real thing is what you can feel, even if it is just and impulse in your extracted brain. We, you and I, are alive until our brains or digitalized consciousness in some large digital simulation of life can feel. So try to stop for a brief moment, feel your body, close your eyes, listen to the deepest sounds you can imagine and that is what is important. I am a lost cause. I am old and stupid. I lost my chance to do great thing in my life, great as a freed from whole this fake world of illusion. I shall try to type this message for some people elsewhere, somewhere far far away from this website. If you have read all of this. I would like to appologize for chaos and not typing for you more precise informations about all of this. Let it go, like the water spilling through your spreaded fingers in the river. It is all just a stream, stream of consciousness, electrical impulses, lies, truth. If you want to fight it fight, if not avoid viciousness. Improve my life if you can. I live in a small house far away from cities. I own almost nothing. That was my story for you. All you have done for me for now is enough. You read a lot of my own letters typed on some old notebook computer. Typed specially for you. Maybe I am just someone who was born to be an organ donor for someone. Maybe it was some dark dystopian scenario of TV-Series like Truman Show. It is not important. There are beings that are capable of doing extraordinary things, even paranormal alike but it is all technology. They are just more advance than I am, than you are. We are just damned to live in ancient simulation of reality circa 2023 CE. Thank you for your time. Help me if you can. I want to wake up from this fake simulation of reality already. Typed by 'Human who thinks that he is artificially damned to live mind controlled life, slowed down, made stupid on purpose'