I needed help

numb

my chest feels heavy and i cant feel anything

I'm scared I'm becoming an NPC

Becoming someone no one ever sees

No one cares

No one thinks to even care

Of who i am

Who i will be

Who i was

Who I'm not

No one cares

And I'm numb

Suck a perfect combo, i would say

I don't care, they don't care, I'm oblivious of their worries, and they are oblivious of mine

Perfect balance

I knew i needed help, i didn't get any

I knew i needed to go to the hospital

But I didn't

You want to know why?

I had finals that week, i was going home in a couple days, it would have created drama, i wouldn’t be able to talk to friends and family, I would seem weak, a failure, even now i know i need to cry, but the tears won't come. I have two jobs, i can't go now because then I wouldn’t be able to work, get money to spend on others. They deserve such a better life and I want to give it to them.

That’s why.

No one cares

And I'm so tired and

numb