Just too young

As I scroll down through the pictures on my facebook profile and the person I believe I have a crush on right now but also has a huge respect because I know "us" may never happen due to a reason I can't tell in here. I didn't stalk his profile, just visited it maybe because I am having huge doubts about my real feelings towards him. I don't know anymore... but I just realized how I really admire him while looking through his previous posts in the past. Through that, I came to a sudden realization that maybe I "fell" not because of his face, smile, charm, or how childish he acts or I can say the personality that really attracts me but maybe because I want to be someone like him. I think it's been years since I last felt these feelings towards someone but also it goes away whenever I cannot see him, or sometimes I feel this towards others too. At this point my judgement becomes clouded since you know, I think I feel encouraged whenever I share how I feel to others and how they validate me that it is normal. I know I said previously that I cannot disclose the reason why I know it is not possible for "us" to happen but here it is, he is actually my professor and yep, you should not worry because I know my boundaries and just like I said, I know it can never happen (yes we can never tell but I believe these feelings would go away someday hopefully). It is actually funny that I wrote an essay depicting the drawbacks of a student-teacher relationship and yet I am into someone who should be my second parent. It is funny that I am only realizing it right now that I should treat him as my second parent. I don't know, I want us to be close but when I saw his pictures with his previous students, I realized, he is someone who has reached and is still up for greater heights in the future while I am just young and deeply admires how respectable and far has he reached. I am really wishing that it was only that although I really believe it is and think it is the main reason I am attracted to him. Now that our semester has come to an end, I may eventually forget this and these immature feelings would go away. By the way, I am of legal age although if we compare our age gap, I am guessing he is already in his 30s and is still pursuing for something better or is maybe taken or already has experienced and been in different kinds of relationship. Maybe I am too young and just got attracted by how old he is (not in a bad way, I mean how mature and intelligent he was). regardless, I will acknowledge these feelings and let it fade as time goes by, after all, I am just a young and didn't know any better.