What are you looking for?
Featured Topics
Select a topic to start reading.
i feel sad. for a number of reasons. but of these reasons, one of them is that i feel lonely. i admit that not every moment is the same and at times im better in some moments than i am in others, but i dont ever have high highs. i just have the rly low lows and sometimes everything in between where even my lows become routine. it feels normal, but its not. and i shouldn’t get used to it, but i already am. im trying to take into consideration all of the connecting factors here. all of the underlying variables. the weathers not the best bc the sun decided to take a day off today. ive also gone back to a stable schedule. wasn’t happy abt it, but its preferable ig. although, i dont want this to be smth i prefer. i want this to be smth i want badly. i want this to be smth i feel proud of. smth that i feel like others would feel proud of me for. this, however, isnt any of those above things.
oddly enough, i feel like im in a state most prime for crying. i mean, i wouldn’t laugh rn. i feel tired. i feel sad. i feel uninspired. but mostly tired. too tired to cry ig? she said i could reopen my case if i needed someone to talk to again. in december, i knew that that would probably be smth id want. but its january now, and during break, i also hoped that maybe id be strong enough not to reach back out again. not that theres anything wrong w it. but im just tired. tired of needing fixing.
its the new yr but fuck new yrs resolutions. i wish i was confident. i wish i wasn’t ashamed. i wish i was competent. i wish i was eager. i wish i had energy. to be normal. i wish i just was. normal.
If you see a comment that is unsupportive or unfriendly, please report it using the flag button.
More Posts
-
life
sometimes i feel like there is so much trauma in my life im just not destined for anything great , since a young age trauma has been present in my life . my ear...
-
I can't handle reality I just want to dream
I want to figure skate so badly but I can't afford it. It's my passion but it's so expensive. I've wanted to for years. I love it and as expected I watch a lot...
there is absolutely nothing wrong with feeling the need to reach back out again. it's not your fault if you need help, everyone needs help sometimes. and some need help more than others because they didn't get as much help earlier in their lives. and that's okay. just like everyone has different skin and hair and eyes, we all have different needs. and some of us need help. that doesn't make it wrong, it's a part of getting better. getting better needs to start with you WANTING to get better, wanting to reach out, wanting to start getting into a productive routine to help give you something to do and look forward to. please don't give up, it's worth it in the end.
Reply