younger siter

everyone just talks about how hard it is to be an older sister. they have to take responsibility for everything, they have to try everything out for the first time. but why does no one ever talk about how hard it is to be a younger sister? i had to grow up earlier, everyone moved on so i had to as well. people always tell me "you're so mature for your age". i always thought that was a compliment, but now i understand it. it's hard to have such a short childhood. it's also hard to never get to do something first. everything i wanna do, my sister did first. my parents never cared much about me. my first day of junior high was the first day of my sisters senior high. they didn't ask me much how my day went because they knew all about it because my sister went there as well. they just cared about her, asked her how her day was and what was new. they never asked me. they're also not as satisfied with me when i get a good grade. i am a good student and i know it. my parents got used to it. they still tell me that they're happy every time i get an A, as if it was my first time getting an A. i know they aren't because i see it in their faces, just the way they react is enough to tell me that they don't really care anymore. but once my sister who isn't as good of a student as me, gets a B, they're so happy and are celebrating. they never celebrate about my grade. it's just hard growing up like this. and i am mentally not doing well but they don't notice. they just think i'm lazy and weird. and they will always think of me like that. it's just my first time living, i have to figure things out. but i'm not really sure i ever will.