Child care and managing the home

This is an extraordinary amount of stress and at epic proportions.

I have gone through numerous stresses in the past, as we all do, but this one takes the cake.

I felt as if the insides of my chest was shrinking and that I can feel all of it happening then and there.

Everyone was just asking for me and asking me. It is like, Why don't you look for the remote yourself? And you, didn't I already tell you what the dish for today will be? And you, will you cut me some slack? Didn't I already gave in to you the past hours and I am now already on the brink of a meltdown?

It feels as if the house has no ability to stand without me. The simplest of jobs are being referred to me. I have done where I could to encourage initiative and automation. If I had not, I probably would have had this what-feels-like-a-heart-attack sooner.

Ive slapped on magnesium lotion on my back, feet and arms for many days now. If I don't, I don't know if anyone would care to make sure and help me ache less. It feels lonely too here. I don't have any positive spin to offer for that one.