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OKAY SO IDK WHAT TO WRITE BUT HERE WE GO
when i was seven years old it got confirmed that i had genius intellect. that's a cool thing tbh like i was so proud of myself. as we can all tell i'm no genius, but to be honest i've trained myself to be stupid. it's an interesting concept, but let me explain. i'm blonde, or at least, i was born blonde, and back when i was born, there was of course the whole dumb blonde stereotype. as a kid i was automatically flagged, i'm in the 99th percentile for everything except creativity, for which i'm in the 95th percentile, i believe. i skipped grades in school, i literally used maths to do sports, it was a bit cuckoo.
it didn't work. my siblings often felt stupider or less loved because i was an older golden child. at some point i started to put on an act. every now and then i pretended like i didn't know things so that everyone else around me felt better. sometimes it was my siblings, sometimes it was my friends. i pretended like i worked super hard in classes so that people felt like i wasn't there by luck. unluckily for them, i was. i didn't need to study. now i do need to study, because that made me get lazy. i had all this untapped potential, which just sort of disappeared as i played dumber and dumber.
i'm done with that era of my life to be honest. i want people to know i'm smart. i want them to know i see numbers and patterns everywhere i go and that my memory is almost photographic. but it takes time to train that out of me. i'm so used to playing stupid that i do it automatically. i automatically claim i don't know something i do, i automatically at ridiculous. its interesting. to say the least.
anyways, thats all, maybe in five years time you'll me somewhere having actually achieved something, or maybe i'll still be here, playing dumb :)
btw, a side note. last year i fell in love with this boy. he was smarter than me. it was insane. you know when you connect perfectly with someone? when covid was happening, i was a 14 year old obsessively watching among us videos and trying to figure out how to hack the game to always win. he spent that year getting 8 patents for different inventions. my iq is 145, his is 167. he's pretty awesome, pretty bloody awesome. idk why i felt like adding that :)
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ReplyI'm smart just don't make smart decisions lol
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