Freaking Brother ಠ⁠ಗ⁠ಠ

My life is good. I do well in school. I'm a loving daughter. I have good friends. I love myself. I don't face hardships like other people.

But.. i always have conflicts with my older brother. He's so immature. I feel like he envy my life and put all his burdens to me.

My brother is a year older than me. We also studied the same course, so normally i would just use his old books. I don't complain about it, but he like to sell it but he can't cuz I'm using it.

We fought a lot recently or maybe since last year. Before, i just hate how he always bring his gf into our house and i can hear their disgusting flirting and kissing.

Now, i hate how he thinks.

He's kinda immature.

He always call me dumb and all. Saying I'm the most intelligent dumbest person he known and wish I would fail my course. I can't say much cuz I don't know how to argue but dang that's too much.

It's not my fault that i study a lot and he plays all the time. It's not my fault too that my classmate decided to fetch me all the time so i can lessen my transportation time & fees. I like saving money, and he likes spending it all on useless things like now he purchased vape -_-

We fought today because my mom ordered him to pay the water bill. Yesterday he asked me to do it, i fought back since he always shove all his tasks on me, like I've already done everything my mom told me to then he'll just dump me his task no way, but i still agree, since i can always ask my classmate to drop me by. But yesterday he just said he would do it. Da heck-

So today, we fought since he was not able to pay it yesterday and today was the due date. He asked me again to go pay for it, and I agreed but i also fought back and mumbled a lot. I decided that he'll just cover my transpo, but he decline.

I don't like wasting money. Like for real, I'm saving. I've been saving for my review center even if it's in the next 3 yrs. and for the books too, cuz i think it's way to expensive to ask my parents to pay for it, I don't like burdening them with all those expenses when it is already hard to make ends meet.

Even if it's a little amount of money, I want to save it. So i ask my brother for it, since I can't ride with my classmate if i go and i have to pay for my transportation. He got angry.

I'm hurt as hell. It's raining too. He got my umbrella since he lost his, decided to pay the bill, and now i'm left alone. pak u.

I have school too later.

He's so immature. His gf, got a job while he spends his time playing. He would left his dishes and i have to wash them. He always ask my parents for money and i hate it. Why can't he be like the other older brothers who would thrive for the family? Why is he not responsible and i have to bear with this person?

Like the freaking hell. All the people are given the same amount of time. You decide what you do with it. It's not my fault I'm thinking for the future but atleast I'm aiming for the best. He's always living himself in the present and deciding to just waste it all away by playing and having a relationship. Use your time wisely. Heck, I'm even 19 and you're 21.

Psycho.