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I'm having or thinking about all those things currently. I'm not having a good time with life... and you know why? Because little baby me is realizing I need to grow up. I live in one of the countries if not the country with the most inflation in the world right now. I have no idea what job should I get later on, I want something related with technology and the internet. Like, my mom can't even afford me ceiling lights... this is out of control, and I don't know how will I survive. I know I'm probably worrying too much, but when am I gonna think about it? When I'm old and it's too late? I feel like I need to do or think about it now. Life is not showing signs of getting better, I feel like I can't even watch my favorite streamer without worrying about my future, or anything really... I just keep thinking I'm going to go homeless. I'm not having a good time, like I said; it seems life is catching up with me and I haven't done my homework yet. I'm the most scared I've been in my life, future wise... and not even when I got beaten really badly, or when I escaped from my home and ended dehydrating and in the hospital... this is my biggest worry I've had because it's about my future, and even the loss of loved ones; all the uncertainty and everything surrounding my shady future. And you gotta know this too, my mind will not stop thinking about it because I have obsessive-compulsive disorder... it's a very annoying way I have to make sense of the world, because I wasn't very smart to begin with, so now my brain is all kinds of distorted and wired; every number, every letter, every way to overthink... I already went through it and if it's even possible, I'm still going through it. So yeah, really scared. My plan was to sit back my whole life and be maintained, but the "what ifs" are making it really hard to simply live. Any help is appreciated.
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You should try to stop the "what ifs" and not bother about the future because it isn't here yet. Bothering about each day as it comes is enough to keep you occupied so for now just take each day at a time and bother about the future when it is time to do so.
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