Dear Cruz,

It's been 1,178 days since we departed. I know that you are so much happier, not souly because of being apart but because you have everything you need now. I dont know if I have all the words right now, but at least im trying to find some clossure still. Its been so long and yet I've just destroyed everything about me. The weight i've gained, the brainrot thats growing, the loss of all motivation. You would be so sad to see me like this and thats why I stay far away.

I miss you so much it hurts when i truly think of how real this all is. Almost feels like yesterday. After everything you did, I still love you with everything in my heart. But now you arent engaged to me anymore, he is your husband. You have your house now, the house you wanted so your dad can come visit as he gets older. I hope he could move in like you wanted to, living far from him was really hard on you. I really appreciated all the time we got to spend together. Im so glad i got to meet your family and really wish I could be there to see your sister and brother grow up. I hope your mom still laughings at the simplest things, and her heart is as kind as the day I first moved in. I felt part of your familly like it was mine for the first time. I just cant stop thinking about you even though its been so long. I wish you'd reach out just to see how I am doing, but i know thats selfish.

I don't think i'll be here much longer but I just want maybe one person to know that she was EVERYTHING. Such a caring person, teaching me how to care about others and not just myself. You did alot for me, and I look at all the things you taught me to love, they blind me with beauty just as you did.

1,178 days and I still love you.

Goodbye Maricruz.