My Unsent Letter To The who I loved Once

Hello, who readers, idk how to convey my feelings and heart has been aching since the day I was born neither my mom wants me nor does my father. Life has always been throwing stones at me . The day I meet him i felt a feeling that he'll help me ,love me, heal me. I loved me him whole heartedly, I never knew that he would cheat on me or play with me emotionally. I was allready having my emotional baggage onto with he sprinkled more trauma. And in the end he made believe that I was destined for the worst. To the guy I loved the most . He was my first love , still he did bad with me he knew my pains and sorrows, at once he told my pains and sorrows were his still he betrayed. Nevertheless in the end it's not him and I. Things ended in such a manner that scares on me grew deeper. I never thought of this sort of end. I still miss the good time that I spent with him i don't know how out of sudden this good time went and he left me. As if he never knewed me or never loved me. It was all my fault , for what I was born. I should have known this if your parents never wanted you no one else would want you. I hope he reads this letter. Let him know he gave that relationship trauma, know I am scared from guys for rest of my life. And I can not fall in love . I still love him no matter what he did. I forgave him But I would never forgave myself for loving him. I forgave what he did but I would never forget what he taught me.

Thank you who so ever read this

I feel dead inside i am so sorry for my existence 😔