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To I,
I feel like we never ended things on a good note, there was always someone trying to cause drama whilst we were in our relationship. I just wanted to apologise for anything that I've done to you whilst we were in our relationship. Recently, I had a dream and you were in it. I thought I was over you, I truly did. I even told others that the breakup didn't affect me, and honestly maybe because I thought that, I tried to believe it and keep the veil that I wasn't affected. But because of that dream I started thinking of you. Not in the sense romantically, maybe a little, but in the sense that I've truly wronged you and I was a shitty boyfriend. Of course you've probably moved on, a beautiful girl like you could definitely get a new one at will and I've even heard you have. When i was told, I thought it didn't affect me but maybe deep down it did. Maybe deep down there was feelings that I didn't tend to because i chose to stay ignorant about my feelings and suppress the true feelings after our heartbreak. I know I wasn't the best boyfriend. Maybe due to the stress of tests, of life. Of course I cant blame my shitty behaviour and neglect towards you on anything but myself. Maybe I have issues that I need to tend to by myself or to a therapist. But I've been deeping our relationship and it hasn't just been today or yesterday. For a while I've been thinking that I truly wronged you and didn't let our relationship end on truly good strings. Of course at the beginning it was truly wonderful and loving but maybe I have issues that I definitely need to tend to, I've also been thinking about that and even had a talk with friends. Maybe I have commitment issues. But I'm truly sorry for any sorrow and distraught I've caused you. I truly am and I just wish I had a chance to say sorry for being a shitty boyfriend in our last flames of our relationship. But I know the last thing you'd probably want is to see my name pop up in your notifications. I know due to some people even our relationship after the break up is now strained.. I just want to say the rumours you heard were never true. They were just a veil I told others and even myself because I didn't want to hurt. You were my first love and there's always a space for you in my heart. I made mistakes. Did I even say sorry for them? I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive me. I can't even do work and revise for my tests next week because this has been clawing me out from the inside. I hope this letter gives you closure, because it certainly has to me. I hope you have an amazing life and everything goes well.
From your shitty ex,
O.
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