Trouble

I am more depressed than ever. When anyone mentions therapy to my mom she laughs. My crush hates me, and probably thinks I'm a bitch. Everyone, including me, hates my friend's boyfriend. I literally am drowning in homework. I can't tell anyone what I really want to tell them. And I made a stupid mistake. I almost slipped my deepest darkest secret, which I cannot because I will never be seen the same and some of my friends will think I wanted this. No I don't. I really wish I could talk to them about my stupid crush. They could give me advice, make cute ship names, talk to her for me, and other ridiculous teenage girl stuff. But at this point I can't because I can't look back without the rest of me being burned, though most of it already is. I hate life.