Holding Your Own in This Crazy Coo-Coo World

Sometimes it hurts to see how heartbroken people are. Got my sad song on loop. You know that in this world everyone needs to hold their own. I don't know where they send people with disabilities who have no one to take care of them, but I'm not disabled and so I would end up homeless, if I don't work my ass for it. I just saw a man cry because he might lose his source of income. And I've been thinking about karma; I don't necessarily believe in karma, but I believe there's a reason why doing bad gets repaid with more bad. I don't believe in karma as in, a force. I believe we are all in this together, and it's hypocritical to call out some people for not being "up to snuff" or being good enough to hold their own. We are all in this together, forever; that was always my way of thinking. Yet, it seems very obvious that well... some people did earn what they got, they got their back plus the back of many generations to come, with all they have earned in their entire lives; and that means they got more opportunities for their children, their grandchildren, and so it's survival of the fittest all again, while some people struggle to earn money, some people already have money or a lot of money, and on top of that they are probably healthier and their subsequent children and so on grow up to be a stronger, more mature "fruit" than all of us who are more like putrid, small fruits. People are like fruits; the bigger, the better, and the smaller the worse. And I also have this feeling that I know there's many people struggling, and I kinda hypocritically want to avoid knowing about it, but then I don't really know what they are going through. How come we are so close yet so far from bigger things like world peace or world sharing? I know it's a far away dream... but I really feel like nobody should be left out of the equation. I'm not the one to change this world though, I'm only expressing myself. Not implying that I will in any way. We work somehow as a society, right? We got rules, traffic lights, cities, etc. I understand that there should be some kind of order to prevent everyone from stepping outside the line. I don't know, sometimes I think we are so close to world peace, but nothing's gonna change unless it really needs to change; that's how it always worked... need is the mother of invention. And what I wanted to say about this man that was crying because he would basically be losing his job, that I was a bad person and ended up thinking a little bit about how he might have deserved it, but when I watched the video for the first time I was with him, but then I watched some people hating on him and I kinda jumped on the bandwagon because I too don't like him very much. Now I'm fucked up for saying that, but I don't wish hate on nobody. I just feel like he was victimizing himself and I'm sure he's going to come out of it some way. What I'm really afraid of is myself and how if I lose the people that currently maintain me, I will go homeless. I really think people take me for granted and they are secretly waiting for my dumb ass to wake up. I am really sad and heartbroken for all the people who know what it's like to have these worries about your future, and I know that's pretty much everyone except the ones who, like I told you, already won the game of life, because their parents or whatever gave them all they needed. And I don't really believe rich people, especially sons and daughters, really work their asses off like people with less do; I believe you should trust nobody who tells you they are better than you, or that tells you they work "harder than you." Anyways, these are my thoughts.