Who I Am

I have so much temper issues it’s not even funny, like my friend has pulled me aside multiple times in the past year to lecture me on it and it was really bad when I was in school after COVID, then it got better, now I’m acting out again and I don’t know if I’m lonely or whatever but I just blew up at my friend for a stupid reason, and I feel like such a bad person because maybe I just need to scream and I’m taking it out on people like they’re punching bags. I have no reason to do that, and sometimes I wonder if I’m subconsciously trying to stir up drama which is horrible and I just need to stop yelling at my friends because someday I’m sure they’ll leave me and I’ll be alone and wishing I had just learned to shut my mouth.