Weird posts noone will read

Better organized thoughts about me

Still no punctuation and for that i apologize

I am sitting here in the suv again the one i got from the divorce remember i am of course stoned and almost wish i wasnt but i am person who needs atleast one vice let me have this i think to myself i scroll through youtube aimlessy only looking at the thumbnails of videos never clicking should i keep watching unrealistic clothing hauls or go back to true crime sometimes i like to get nostalgic watch trash tv like cheaters and Maury the white trash truly embedded in me considering where i was born noone should be suprised but its comforting none the less i got to read today while i charged my electronics in the library as i do everyday.. because i live in their parking... lot im reading some book called a bad influence but im still to caught up in my last book st. Ambrose school for girls to tell you if its any good..im sweating sitting out here but the sun will leave soon im not talking much today just scrolling thinking and fantasizing about a random life that isnt existing to me as the negging narcissist entertains live on YouTube in the drivers seat as usual.. things that are done inevitably everyday