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There's a lot of words inside to me. And I remember this website and luckily I found it.
So it's been a year since I write to this website. And pretty much I might say there's still some part of me still stay the same. And there's a change too.
Last themed I write here is about my undiagnosed anxiety disorder that suffers me each day.
And now Im lucky enough to have more mental illness. I have currently undiagnosed eating disorder.
I addicted myself to lose weight as fast as I can but no one told me how much I lose my weight I gain so much hate with food. I always feel guilt when a food enters to my body, but sometimes I do love the lustful taste of it. Well afterwards I will surely regret it. So idk I either binge eat and blame myself because I let that happened and force myself to be in a water fast. Idk it's so stress to the point idk want to eat anymore.
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I have a similar thing! Though I restrict but I have a bad snacking problem. I've been steadily 5kg or so underweight for like 10 years or something, wait... 15 years? something like that. maybe longer. I don't get it. Even when I ate everything all the time, I was still around normal weight. So I guess I burn A LOT of calories? Do your habits change when your mood is better? I feel hungrier and eat more. But I'm always hungry and tired. but become MORE hungry. damn it.
ReplyU must have a fast metabolism! lucky for u! (Well if it's a good thing to u, ur lucky)
yeah when I'm in a good mood or feel light, I exercise more to the point extend to my limit.
Well in my case when I didn't eat, I control myself to binge. But when I taste a food I can't stop to munch as if like there's something missing that I need to fulfill. ughh.
ReplyYou should feel thankful for the food when you eat it because there are people in this world who are hungry and starving. It is no good not wanting to eat because you have to so that you will live.
Replyauthor here. Yah ik some people didn't get a chance to eat. But thanks for reminding me. Fyi. I post this with my own struggle, my own problem my own pain, did they feel what I've been coming through? Each hate I see myself because how badly I am in front of the mirror. This is all myself, my own story. But still thanks to ur concern.
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