Hear me...

Can you listen to me please?

There's so much to tell but nobody is there to listen to me. Nowadays I'm being quite, observing, lazy, depressed lost soul. I'm not that much good person that God will be there to hear me.

You may rectify me that God is there, I know that and certainty I feel like I'm not connected to him like the way I was...

I'm just lost in my random thoughts...the behaviour of my near and dear ones. Because for a long time, I have been detached from my friends circle. I don't talk to peoples who talk for the show ups and for the benefits they are getting from me or for their motivational speaker. I do motivate others. I know a lot of things and still I don't know anything what's going on.

My diary become bored or my continuous nagging feeling. And I feel like there's nobody to listen. No one is there who understands my emotions. My own mother and brother can't differentiate between my anger and my sorrow. They knows that I have only one emotion and that is anger. To confirm this, I have tried numerous times to make my thinking wrong but I'm not wrong. Also my partner doesn't understands my emotions.

After my father passed away, everything has been changed for me. Everyone changed. Their behaviour, their fake affection... Everything.

Nobody is there to listen to me. Not even my God. I have always felt like he is always there for me but may be I lost him too... I'm that unfortunate. I keep losing everything. No one is good to me and I'm trying my best to make the settlement with my situation but it's not happening I guess. I'm being unemployed, I couldn't able to treat my mother. I know nobody loves me or likes me nowadays. Everyone is seeing me as a loser. But still I can't keep myself from thinking about my mother's health. She's also depressed after my father passed away. I can't blame her. But everything is being so exhausted. I don't know how to take control of my life. Also a suggestion that don't study too much, you will get crossed up.

There's still a lot to tell but I'm ending my nagging feeling here. Hope you don't get bored.

Radhe Radhe ❣️