Through Out My Life

I'm a junior in high school, and I've been at this school for four years now. I'm a quiet introvert, and I was always too shy to join in the morning exercises. I'm not as smart as my classmates, and when the teacher tells us to pair up, I'm always the one left out. It makes me feel lonely and anxious, and I overthink things. Everyday I just wish to have some good luck and an encouragement of myself, last month my hair was cut short and I didn't it like it one bit I was trying to act like I like it in front of my elder cousin since she was the one who compulsion me to have my hair short. Well the pass days my hair is still short and I miss my hair being long, through out the days I was being ignored by my classmates each time that I tried to talk to them, I have two friends named Julliene and Tanizha. Tanizha like girls and shes a tomboy and Julliene is straight they were both a transfer student in our class I had them as my friends in a few past weeks me being quiet I wasn't used to approaching them so I was slowly not their friend anymore, it was truly sad at that day I hadn't talk to each one of them. Also one day we had a groupings they was trying to not let me join their group since my voice were weak/low I just tried not to over think and trying to hold myself not to tear up, and when the teacher asked 'Who will you be grouped with?' the second teacher replies to her 'I think she'll just be grouped with Tanizha's group' they just nodded at me and walk away, I just sat at my seat as I wait for the bell to ring and sometime later we dissmised. After that day i felt kinda lonely and sad about it, I just try and remind myself that next day will be different.