To my not so future self ☺️

I love myself.. finally..i understand what that means in this moment so i write it down to not forget... but i picture it like this i wake up after a great nights sleep as I've allowed myself all the hours of rest needed i get up happy no devices immediately no YouTube live no tiktok no music no loud talking as soon as i wake just me and family...i shower and brush my teeth daily a luxury i dont not have or even care about atm...im going to look at myself in the mirror daily naked all perfect imperfections shown to my eyes and know beauty when i see it surrounding myself with calm and loving conversation i used to have my patient and loving demeanor returned as i write this and i picture exactly how this feels and looks chest is clogged with emotions...i love myself and i forgive myself...i picture myself reading books outside listening to the world im meditating looking for my higher self while i nurture childhood trauma i think to myself your 5'4 100lbs but powerful... I've stopped smoking weed and tobacco my mind and body feel clean and healthy i even work out and my body looks amazing nightly i cook a meal for friends and family like we used to while we laugh at each other im in constant contact with my children and i am content with our relationships finally ive taken up hobbies crotchet bags rug tufting its calming and i truly love the things I make i lay with myself at night in complete comfort knowing i make good decisions and i am in complete safety