My Unsent Letter

To the guy that I like,

It's been 2.5 weeks since the last time we message each other. idk what is going on. Idk what I did. I wish you talk to me. I wish you can tell me what or how you really feel even if it's bad news or good news.

I should be mad at you or upset but I decide not to coz it won't help me at all. I miss you and our chats. it's been hard but I'm getting better. I wish and hope you at least you think about me sometimes.

today, I feel really sad, heart broken, hurt idk I just want to cry. I wish I really knew what happen. you just left me in the air. I asked myself what's wrong with me?. am I not good enough to you? am I ugly? I just want to hear your voice.

I really want to forget you and move on.

sometimes I wish you didn't even message me and ask me to meet you. I wish you dint come to Thompson. I wouldn't feel this way right now. I was ok when we were just talking. I didnt know I'm gonna like and fall for you. I even told you the very beginning to have decency to tell me if you don't like me or things we started is not working anymore but again this is what you did after me telling you really how I feel about you.

I sign up to this site because I don't know who talk to about you. this is how hurt I am I don't want everyone know I am hurt. I know I'm lying. Im trying to be brave but damn I am still hurt and I really wish this will go away.

they said you'll come back. I can feel you will but idk if it's going to be the same the way I look at you. I really lost my respect to you. damn it really hurts. writing this right now makes me cry coz I really like you. but had to write this this is the only way I can express how I feel. ughhhhh I know ill heal I know it takes time but I got this. one day ill look at this message I wrote and laugh coz I know I'm just upset that's why I'm writing this.

if one day you come back I will try to read this or send this to you.

whatever your reason for ghosting me I hope you don't do that to other woman. please do not let them fall for you. please respect their feelings. please do not led them on. like you did to me.

I wish the time you know I'm falling for you I wish you sooner you broke my heart.

I hope I forget and move on sooner.