I still think about it

Its been like a year or longer since i last talked to you. I remember the last chat. I was really stressed and I was pacing but I was so glad you joined the chat but It wasn't like our normal chats you weren't fawning over me you werent trying to get off. I think this frustrated me. you were asking me how I was doing and what I was doing over the weekend I said "none ya" and you said bye and i never talked to you again. I think of you all the time. our talks were so exciting to me. I still have not talked to anyone the way I talked to you I miss that you knew what i went through and you had gone through it too. I miss all the compliments, the word exceptional always reminds me of you. I'm sorry I was rude the last time we talked. I knew it was going to be short lived but I didn't realize what it would do to me. I remember how much excitement I felt everytime you got online it was so secretive and personal. I know we were both in the wrong but at least I was honest. I wish you had stopped sooner I wish I could see your face. I have no idea who you are or if anything you said was true or meant anything. I know its over its been over. you mean a lot to me even though you shouldn't. I want to forget all of it.